Hi peoples...It's Caroline T. writing from the hospital...apparently attempt #3 didn't work so well...The doctor told me to just stick a gun to my head and b**w my brains out if I want to help everyone...Hint:when trying to k**l yourself do not overdose on Tylenol...it doesn't work.
Anyway, I cannot figure out how to convert stuff in algebra like, converting 34cm^2 to in^2
I really just wanted to let you guys know that I'm still alive, just really, really sick. I should be out of the hospital by the end of the week, hopefully...then onto life...My parents say I'm stupid and selfish and can't believe it didn't work again...And last night I found out I was adopted and they wish that they had never gotten me...HELP!!!!
I think that you are a gift girl. Don't end your life yet. I think that you shouldn't do that to yourself. Just breathe and calm down if you feel bad. And I'm not good at math but I am good with people.
+129839 To convert 34 cm2 to in2.......realize that there are 2.54 cm to an inch
So....
Take 34cm2 and divide it by (2.54cm)2 ....so we have
34/(2.54)2 = 5.27 in2
(Please seek some help, Caroline.....life is too valuable and you have something to contribute, too)
+4473 Yes, as Chris stated, find help! From anyone who you may know or someone close by like neighbors!
Also, focus on a goal or passion. Whatever it may be, put forth all your effort into it and work for that very goal/passion. Life has its ups and downs, but never give up! Don't let people mock you. Prove to them that you are better than their words and actions! You are still young and have plenty of time to work on your dreams and whatever you want. Don'lt let anyone steal those from you. Do what you want. Yes, society is a bit messed up these days because people hurt others and cause tremendous pain. However, believe in a higher power and spirit to purify yourself. No one can hurt you if you have an almighty being inside of you. All you have to do is believe in yourself and prove to others that you are better than they think.
Genghis Khan was mocked as a boy. He was tortured and his family and friends were attacked. He was alone most of his life...but look how recognized he is. He grew up, believed in Tengri (spirit), and eventually changed his life dramatically. Those who made fun of him suffered in the end. Everyone knows Genghis Khan. He will forever remain in history! He is probably one of the best warriors of all time...no doubt about that...if he were alive today, he would be divine.
Your story has a meaning, too! You will do better, although it will take time. Just concentrate your efforts. Remember, life is precious and there is no other substitute. Believe in the future and see yourself in a better position every day when you wake up. Before you sleep, list what you're grateful for, no matter how small it may be. When you wake up each morning, think of a fresh start with new experiences and moments. Hold on to the best moments. Your good memories will serve you well. You will remember all the fun times you had and those will never go away. In fact, I always recall a few memories each night....it helps me remember the good times and also to look forward to the new, unknown paths yet to be explored.
All in all, maintain focus and fight with all your might. Bring out the inner warrior within you.
Remember this quote: "First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win."
~ Mahatma Gandhi
Also, meditate to bring out the softer side inside of you. I know it sounds crazy but need a mix of both...like a monk!
+129839 Well said, Aziz........I couldn't add any more to that.......
Thnx Aziz...it's Caroline...The only problem is I have 2 goals in life, and there is a mountain standing in my way...I'm not even supposed to be here, my real mom tried to abort me! How in the world do I get through this?!?!?! I want to be in the marines when I grow up, but no one wants me to...NO ONE LOVES ME!!!! Not my adopted parents, not my friends, not my siblings, not even my other family. I watched the only person who ever loved me, my grandpa, die when I was 13 b/c some stupid doctors messed up!!!!! I can't do this!!!!! Why am I not dead?!?!?! I've been hit by a car(suicide attempt #1), I've been hit by another car (attempt #2) and I've overdosed (attempt #3) Why can't I just die?!?!?! Someone give me a purpose!!!!!!
+2 Your purpose in life is to live. All the people on this earth was born for a reason. Many people think that there really isn't a reason to live on this earth. Many people think "why am I here?". Well, I think that everyone has a reason to be alive and breathe on this planet. You may not really find your reason tomorrow or even the next day. Just know that you have one. In your won way, you are changing the world every single second you're alive whether its putting carbon dioxide in the air or even just smelling a flower. Every second you're alive, you have a wonderful purpose to be alive.
As for no one loving you, I may not know you but I love every creature and person on this earth whether I like it or not. I just can't help it. And your friends, why would they be friends with you if they didn't love you or even't like you? Would you be friends with someone you didn't like? Ok then. They love you whether you realize that or not. I think that your parents love you too even when they may ont sometimes. I have those moments a lot and I think they do too. Just know that everyone loves you.
And then theres the 3 attempts. You want to know a secret? I think that the reason you are still alive is because God is not ready for you to come to his kingdom Heaven. He wants you to stay on this earth untill you fulfill your purpose. That's why you're not dead. I can remember the summer of my third grade year, July 26th, I was in a fatal car accident. I was smacked in the face with a car seat, lost some permanent teeth, and knocked out unconcious. The doctors told my parents there was not a chance at all that I would live. I had 2 emergency sugeries and the doctors just didn't think I would servive. They said it would be a merical if I did servive. The next morning, I responding. I was going to get to live. I just had to go through another surgery. Just know that when God is ready for you to die, you'll know when you see the Lord himself. Don't k**l yourself and try to die early. It's a sin. Just live and you life will get a lot better soon. I promise.
